Spookids

I literally hardly draw anymore, and it sucks, like I only create small pieces, or I sketch something but never find the motivation to finish it. I'm trying, and it sucks bc I love creating things. Life update kinda?? I applied to an art course at a different college, and went to literally one day of college (where we went to a gallery and then got evacuated). I missed the first two days of college bc I had a dental abcess, very swollen and very painful. I took lots of pain meds, lots and lots of pain meds, and bc it was over the weekend, I had to go to the emergency dentist, which wasn't fun at all bc your boy has such a severe dental phobi

I literally don't think I've interacted with dA in like a month??? oops Struggling a lot with overstimulation, busy routine, sensory impairment, lots of the stuff I mentioned in my "TooMuch" piece, a string of "bad autism days" turned into "bad autism months", I think I spend 90% of my time just exhausted and fed up, and just Done. I go to bed exhausted, fight for enough sleep and then wake up exhausted. So art hasn't been my priority, I'm not gonna force myself to do something I'm just not feeling up to. (this isn't like a goodbye forever, dw, I'm getting back to it). I also finished college for good and did a piece reflecting on that, so

I've been kinda putting this off since I made this new account, but I have another motive for making this new account and it ties into a piece I'm working on currently. When I was 14 and 15, I was groomed by two men on this site, I didn't know what was happening, I thought it couldn't be bad, right? They're adults, and people don't hurt kids, right? This new account is an escape, they hurt me bad, but I'm untouchable now, I can escape all of the physical evidence of the grooming (hundreds of notes). One of them would imply sexual things, would ask for pictures, make comments about my appearance, refer to me as his, like I was a possession, a